no 1 can understand how i feel now. many of them think that i am a very disobedient and bad-tempered girl yes i am but i am like this because i want to be an independent person even i am disabled. all they think is just how bad i m but no 1 i mean no 1 bother to find out y i m so bad and how i feel inside. not even the one i trusted the most or i used to trust now i even become her enemy whom she wanted to take revenge on me. this is so ridiculous right. i know my attitude wasnt good but it was because i felt frustrated and angry at the same time because i am useless and helpless. i m also a human who will feel angry but doesnt mean that i can throw my temper at others. i am so sad and don know what i shld do now.
thinking of working but i cant travel alone even i found a job i can never go there and yet no one understand how fed up i feel about myself for being good for nothing. she shld know how i feel but because i did something bad actuali i m angry with her for not understanding me my feeling. they always thk tt i am cruel to them but have they realise that they are cruel to my future too for not letting me to do what is necssary or useful for me in the future. their care and concerns will drive me to no way. do they know?
all they want is want me to listen to them but i have my own thought and ambition i know that they do this because they care for me. i have the biggest fault for not being able to give them enough confidence in me and i am stubborn as i don want to admit that i am wrong too but i just cant say sorry even if i did they will say sorry no cure the hurt has already made so jus let her do or say whatever they want to me as it s my fault
