today's a bad whether

i have just written an essay for a competition it's about my regret here it goes.......

WHAT’S THE THING YOU REGRET THE MOST

I have never been good to my grandfather. In fact, I have taken him for granted. I think it’s human nature not to cherish the people who are still around. When we are aware of it, it may be too late for you to do anything.

My grandfather has just past away last November. My grandfather is a very quick-tempered person so I didn’t like to talk to him. Furthermore, he had some hearing problems which made our communication break down. But I know that he does love me. Every morning, he would prepare breakfast for me and bring me to downstairs to wait for my transport on school days because I am disabled. And he also would ask my dad for my pocket-money every night after he worked with my dad.

Basically, I don’t live with my dad after my mum’s death because my dad has his new family now but he still pays for my expenses. So I lived with my grandparent. From baby, my grandparent and auntie have been taking good care of me. They didn’t treat me like a disabled child but they do overprotect me. They don’t let me go out on my own and don’t ask me to do any house chores. I know that I can’t do any of the house chores but I still want to try to do some which made my grandparent very angry. They were angry because of my stubbornness. I did a lot of things which made them angry. For example, playing the internet the whole day and buying all the useless things such as VCDs because I like watching shows.

Even on the day, my grandfather was lying on the bed really sick, do you all know what I was doing that time? I was watching a Taiwanese variety show online which had my idol in it. Instead of asking him how he was doing, as I thought he would be alright after a good rest. To the family, it was a shock when we got the news that my grandfather had gone from my small auntie who had accompanied my grandfather to the hospital after he fainted in the bathroom. I cried out loud in front of my computer. I cried because I regretted for not showing a little concern to my grandfather.

One more thing is that if wasn’t me, my grandfather might not have died by then. If my school holidays were earlier, my grandparent would have gone for a trip, and he wouldn’t have died of overworking. So I blame myself for his death. They could just go for a trip to take a break and left me in my dad’s care during the holidays because my transport driver can’t go to my dad’s place to fetch me for it’s far away from my school (Bishan I.T.E).

Actually, I know that I should be extra good to my grandparent but I take them for granted. Precisely, I can say that I don’t know how and what to do so as to treat other nicer. But I will take good care of myself, as I know that all my grandparent wish to see is me living happily and healthily.